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Gauntlets  by AngelOfAsh
Finally crocheted a set of gauntlets... they arnt done, there is a design that's supposed to be on the back, but the basic is done so yay... they are a little baggy so I'm working on a way to fix that with my next set, but other than that they came out ok and are comfy
Whats That? by AngelOfAsh
Whats That?
This is about the time she realized the birds outside were no longer behind glass... it was a good thing she was on a leash...
Complacent  by AngelOfAsh
Cricket likes it outside on the leash... it's her new favorite thing


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United States
I am currently 25 years old and have been on Deviant Art for 10 years. I work at Walmart when I'm not writing, drawing, singing, reading, or crocheting. I live with my boyfriend Otter and we've been together for 5 years now, and anything good in my life revolves around him or my amazing close friends Winter or Meg... Anything else you want to know about me, just ask <3

Long Time No See

Journal Entry: Sun Jun 12, 2016, 8:30 AM
I know, I know, I've been away for far too long.

I'm sorry.

Life got in the way, as it usually does. It started off really well... a few days before Christmas , Otter asked me to marry him... kinda. Actually it was more of we were sitting on the couch and I gathered enough lady balls to say "Hey so I have something to ask. We've been together for nearly 6 years, we live together, we both have agreed that neither of us is going anywhere any time soon, I already have a ring you gave me three years ago, can we just make it official? Can I start calling you my fiancee?" To which he made a big stink saying, "No, no, you need a proposal and a ring and all that. No." So I got all quite and mopey for the rest of the day and then put it out of my mind for the holidays... then on Christmas eve my brother notices the ring on my finger (mind you he was there three Christmases ago when Otter gave it to me...*eyeroll*) and freaks out in that very flamboyant way he does; he grabbed my hand and stares at the ring with a huge gasp. "Is THIS WHAT I THINK IT IS????" ...... I shake my head and start telling him how it isn't, that it's just a ring when Otter who is sitting on the other side of the table goes "What are you talking about? I thought we made it official the other day... i thought we decided it was an engagement ring." Confused I raise an eyebrow at him "But you said no...."    "I thought I cleared that up... I was only giving you a hard time..."
So we got engaged exactly the way we started dating and even moved in with each other...
It just kinda happened.

But the rest of the year went a little down hill... I got a promotion at work, but it may just force me to quite. Still haven't heard back from the really great job opportunity I had put in for over a year ago...

My mom and dad are getting a divorce... and it's not going well.
I understand why it needs to happen, I even encouraged it because it's what my mom needed. As an adult woman I am proud of my mom getting out of the situation she was in and getting my three little siblings out of there... trying to make a better life for them. As an adult I see that my stepfather is abusive, demeaning, deranged and unfit to even help raise a child let alone be a father to small children. Even when I was a kid I knew this and tried to convince my mom to leave him when I was 15. I was smart back then and she should have listened to me, but it is what it is and as an adult i realize that the three little ones wouldn't exist if she had. I'm glad they do and I'm glad we can attempt to save them from the messed up childhood I was stuck with.
But there is a part of me that just wants to curl up and cry because for a split second I had my dream
For 2 months, I had a father to walk me down the isle 
I never had a father before him and I always wanted one. For as long as I could remember my birthday wish was for a dad who loved me because my biological father doesn't care about me. Then I got one... it took me growing up and moving out of the house to get along with him, but i finally had a dad. Finally.
And a silly little stupid voice in my head said it will be OK, he loves me, he has been my father for 13 years, he wouldn't just abandon me because I'm my mother's child. I'm his too. He loves me. Just because they are getting a divorce doesn't mean he is divorcing me.

Apparently it does.
I am not his blood and that's all that matters to him. According to him I am a liar and shouldn't get married because i am scum like my mother.

So i am dealing with my heart being broken by another father figure.  It's nit easy but i'm getting through it. I was really depressed for a few months, almost as bad as it used to be because i had to re-live a lot of stuff i wished i would forget. Nightmares about the woman who ruined my life because apparently she's back in my stepfather's life.
But yea... That's why I've been absent for awhile....

Hopefully no more drama... I cant take any more drama...

  • Watching: Rules of Engagement
  • Eating: Baked swordfish and rice pilaf
  • Drinking: raspberry iced tea


Dragon Plushies
The Green Dragon (with wings) by AngelOfAsh
Green Dragon by AngelOfAsh
Oglaf the Dragon by AngelOfAsh
Dragon Plushies!
All variations of color and button eyes available... Mostly because these are just so much fun and I can't keep them... so if I want to make them, I have to find people to take them!
Paypal is preferred, but if it needs to be points, we can make a deal. 
Lion Mane
Lion's Mane (work in progress) by AngelOfAsh
The Lioness by AngelOfAsh
I'm currently working on a commission for a gentleman at work; a black and grey version of this. A Piece like this goes for about $60 because of the time it takes to put on that mane...

So for a new job I hope to get, and for health reasons, I have been going to the gym a lot. Do You? 

1 deviant said No, I'd rather work on my art
1 deviant said Sometimes, when I can
No deviants said Yes! Everyday! I love working out
No deviants said Nah... nobody has time for that crap....
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foreverartist5454 Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2016  Student Digital Artist
happy birthday :D
FearlessFibreArts Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2015  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Thank you so much for faving my Southdown Cowl!
AngelOfAsh Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome! Thank you for sharing :hugs:
Kinicha Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2015  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Thanks for the fav! Made my day!
AngelOfAsh Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome! XD hope it was a good day
Faliona Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2015  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Thanks for the :star: revamp  :happybounce: 
AngelOfAsh Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
welcomes XD
microbiologist Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks 4 :+fav:,Jennie :D…

Have a nice summer :aww:
RezusError Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the fave!
AngelOfAsh Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Welcomes :D
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